Sunday, June 24, 2012

Weekend Fashion

Well, this weekend in New York I did have the chance to travel down to SoHo and do a little retail therapy. I went to my favorite store Brandy Melville and struck out. It was so crowded, hot, and humid in the store, I just needed to get out of there. That prompted me to go to Top Shop for the first time. I fell in love. There were four stories of pure retail bliss in that store. The style was relatable to Urban Outfitters - prices were similar in range, somewhat expensive, and the clothing was intricate and interseting. I would say Top Shop's style is a little more girly and less hispter than Urban but nonetheless I loved what I saw. 

 I only had enough money to buy one shirt there but I surely will be back soon for more! I wore this Top Shop lace shirt with a pair of black fabric shorts and black Juicy Couture wedges. I used a rouge lipstick to add a pop of color to the outfit and tried out a sleek bun look for my hair. Overall I loved my outfit! I felt like I fit right in walking around town at night. 

 I can't wait to go back to my new favorite store: Top Shop!


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Welcome to the Real World

Living in the city is hard. 

I keep going back and forth in my mind about how this is an awesome, unforgettable experience, but it also is a difficult experience and certainly creates personal strength and growth. I wonder, am I being too sensitive about all of this? It's almost 1:00 am and I have to get up for work in 7 and a half hours - the thought of that makes me so so so so so so upset. All I can think about right now is how badly I want to go home. I miss the comfort of home so much. I think part of it is that I am somewhat isolated up here in New York City. How can that be possible when I'm living in one of the most densely populated cities in the world? I am not sure - probably because of my attitude towards all of this. 

I have to admit I am somewhat of a sheltered person. I can be a go-getter at times but I think I am learning that I value comfort and security a lot more than I do risk. I was brought up in a nice suburban neighborhood with a loving and caring family, and haven't done a ton on my own. I have transferred colleges and moved up to the Bronx on my own but I did somehow tackle that and feel like it was easier than what I am going through right now.

 I think it was easier because when I made the decision to transfer, I was at rock bottom. The best option for me was to move and I had nothing holding me back. Right now, I miss home. Home is awesome and relaxing and beautiful to just sit and look at. Sure, it can get really boring, I know that, but at home I am surrounded by my amazing family and few friends that stuck around for the summer. It is just so comfortable and I miss all the familiarities, conveniences, and calmness. Combine being up here without friends/family with also trying to maintain some whirlwind of a long distance relationship with a boyfriend who is living and working at his home and goes out all the time. 

 My sister does live up here in the city with her boyfriend but she also works and lives on the East side so I can't always see her. I have spent most of my time with her and I am extremely thankful to have her here for support. I just miss being social as well. I think it's coming up on a month that I have been here and I have gone out with my peers once. That is not okay for me! I need to be more social. I miss going out and having fun and letting loose! Being a new intern at work is stressful enough, but not even having an outlet to goof off and finally act like I am still a junior in college makes it all that much harder.

The grind of the real world is no joke and it intimidates me. I get upset when I think about how little I am excited or stimulated by things out here. It's crazy because you would think living in New York City would do just the opposite for someone but for some reason I am just not appreciating this atmosphere as much as I should be. I guess the city isn't for everyone and I am really coming to learn what I like and dislike in life - I dislike chaos, crowded areas, and city smells. It is cool to walk out my door and see skyscrapers all around me and have access to some of the best places in the country, but with my new work schedule I barely ever have the energy to even cook a decent dinner at night. I don't know how all you adults do it, it is seriously blowing my mind that in a few years when I graduate this is what my life is going to become. Work, along with my seminar on thursday nights drains every ounce of energy out of me every day.

I guess I had an easy year at college last year with classes starting at 1 pm and 4 pm in the afternoon - I could do whatever I wanted at night and sleep in and have no problem being up for class, not to mention I had my boyfriend and friends within footsteps of me at all times. Oh how I miss those days so much. 

Who knows, maybe I will adjust to this situation better but I am almost a month in and things have not lightened up on me in the slightest. Going home last weekend was extremely bittersweet - sweet because I loved every second of relaxing and being home and bitter because I had to leave after two short days. I keep telling myself, you should be more appreciative of this - the opportunity to live in New York City for a summer at age 20, what else could be better? I just can't seem to get in that mindset. Work drains me and makes me feel isolated. I do have one or two friends living in this city but it's just so hard to connect with people. Being in such a large atmosphere and knowing no one is hard. I think I got all of my touristy "I love New York" moments out of me my freshman year of college. When I transferred to Fordham I came to the city all the time because I didn't have friends at the school and simply explored - went to Times Square, Central Park, SoHo a bunch of times. I know this city has a ton more to offer and so much more to see but I simply don't have the motivation in me to do it. The weekends are the only times I have to actually relax. 

Hopefully my outlook on all of this will change and I can develop some kind of better attitude. I try listening to fun music when I go to work to pump me up and it just feels forced. I miss my family, friends, and boyfriend. I miss college and I miss home. Working alone in NYC at a large company for your first job is amazing but don't underestimate the work that goes into it - because it consumes your life. I can't deny though that I am truly blessed to have been given this job opportunity and have the financial resources to even get the chance to live in New York. I know tons of people dream of this and I am so thankful to be experiencing it.

Well I guess that is enough expression and complaining for one night. I am just in a bit of a sensitive, sour mood right now and needed to let it all out. This move is a stress on me instead of an excitement. Any advice on adapting to change - please share because I am in need! 



Pretty Pictures

I finally have had the time to browse a few of my favorite blogs and pull some lovely inspiration for you all to enjoy! 

Just a note - I have been really into the color red this summer - I am dying to find a dynamic red piece for my wardrobe! I purchased a red bathing suit a few months back but I want a shirt or dress or something more dramatic!

Lastly, on a more personal level - I definitely spend too much time on Facebook haha. Sometimes I feel like I don't have "cool" enough pictures on there. My pictures are all crappy quality of me going out with my friends or something stupid like that...but more and more I'm noticing girls with these model shots and artsy profile pictures taken with serious nikon or canon professional cameras and I'm like uhh am I missing out? Part of me wants to jump on the artsy bandwagon and start putting up some "model shots" of myself to feel beautiful - but the other part of me feels like that's just not me. Like really, who am I trying to impress? Facebook is a great thing and a terrible thing at the same time. Sigh. 

Enough of that blabber though and onto the inspiration, and a picture of my own from this weekend taken for a fashion job application!

I am wearing the blouse I mentioned in my last post from UrbanOutfitters, True Religion jeans, and G by Guess wedges (they are a great knock off of Gucci!)

Inspiring Women

Images via all the pretty birds, le fashion, and atlantic pacific (I am basically obsessed with everything she does)


Sunday, June 17, 2012

Blogging, Motivation, Trends, You Name it!

Hello Audience! - whomever you may be :) 

So I am extremely wound up right now because I am starting to get some new exciting plans together for my junior year at Fordham. I don't want to give anything away since nothing is concrete yet - but I could be making my first real advance into the fashion world! I am working on it so once I know more I will surely write an update about it on here! 

Anyway, I came home to the beautiful suburbs of Pennsylvania this weekend for Father's Day and my Dad's birthday so I finally have some peace and quiet, and free time to write a nice post on here! Since I have had SWS for over a year now I feel like it is time to reevaluate the focus and purpose of my blog to get everyone up to speed and on the right page.

Initially when I created SWS it was a platform for me to express my creative side and pursue a hobby and interest in fashion. This blog still obviously has those initial components but has definitely shifted to a more personal level. In my internship, we talked about the importance of "lifting the corporate veil". In other words, it's important to show the personal side of your business and insight into the people who run it to your customers. It creates a bond between the company and consumers and brings a sense of comfort/reality to whatever you are trying to promote - and that is exactly what I am trying to do with my blog by writing posts like these. It would be great to go back to my early blogging days and update every day on trends, and have my own photo shoots of my styling tips and advice but the truth is, as a rising junior in college I have a lot on my plate right now. I am trying to update when I can but I definitely do not have as much time to surf my favorite blogs and look for as much inspiration as I used to - which is good and bad - good in the sense that I am using my own original material but bad in the sense that my pictures do not look professional and "cool" - aka I probably do not lure as many viewers these days but hey that's okay; I am doing this for me!

Blogging ties into my own motivation as well. I still am figuring out how motivated of a person I am. Certain things get me motivated, like my potential future plans for the fall. However I would say more times than others I would rather just chill out and do a whole lot of nothing with my days. I guess that's normal - right? I am not really sure what I am trying to say here but all I know is that with my current internship, my first "real world" job experience, motivation has become somewhat of a struggle for me. I love the opportunity that I have and have been learning so much / seeing some amazing things while on the job, but part of me is struggling with letting go of my youthful days of summer! I miss laying out by the pool, listening to music, and having barbecues with friends. I miss the overall familiarity of home. Nowadays I am so drained from waking up early and working and don't have a ton of friends in the city to hang out with so it's hard to always keep my morale up. It definitely has been a tough transition but I am doing my best with it and know that this is an extremely beneficial experience for me not only for my resume but for my character as well. 

On the fashion side of things, I have learned that it's hard to keep up with the fashion world when you are busy at work and don't have a ton of money to devote to buying clothes. I have an interesting sense of style that I've come to realize. I wrote in one of my earlier posts this year about the line between looking sexy and being over the top, and how your look affects your relationships and reputation. I definitely admit that I enjoy dressing sexy - not sexy in a sleezy way - but dressing myself and knowing that I look good. That probably sounds really funny and self centered but hopefully people know what I am talking about. Ya know, when you put on an outfit that just looks "right" and it totally boosts your confidence in yourself - that's the kind of clothing that I love! It was interesting though because this weekend I went to UrbanOutfitters to try and find a red cropped cami that I had spotted about a month ago and couldn't find it. Instead I found a very fine white blouse that cuts off half way into a nude sheer bottom. It is so classy looking and of such a high quality - I fell in love. I was faced with a decision though - do I continue to pursue the red crop top that has been on my mind for a month now? Or do I drop the sexy look for a classy, beautiful blouse? It was a tough decision but I chose class. I am 20 years old now and entering the adult world. Although sure, I am still in college and there are going to be fun party nights that that red crop top would have definitely come in handy for, I came to a firm realization that I am heading in a new direction in life. This internship in NYC is teaching me how to be an adult and work in the adult world - my youthful days of laying out by the pool and wearing somewhat provocative clothing is starting to come to an end. Again, this doesn't mean I'm done having fun because that is not the case. I just need to remember that I am trying to create a positive image for myself - not only for my boyfriend, or my employer, or my family, but for MYSELF! It feels nice to walk around and look good and maintain class at the same time. It attracts positive attention and not aggressive attention. Who knew a simple blouse could make such a difference in my life? :)

Next topic! Trends: So I also bought these floral skinny jeans from h&m for only 30$! I wore them to work last week along with a tangerine blouse and brown wedges. It certainly was a cute outfit but I was so nervous about wearing the jeans! I would say my style is pretty classic and I rarely do succumb to trends because too often you blow your money on them and then they're out of style! However, I need non-denim jeans for work and I thought I would give these a go. I just felt nervous about wearing them because they were cheap and an obvious example of how I'm simply "following the trend" of floral pants. I saw a girl walking around Chelsea market in what looked like to be expensive, couture floral pants and I was like "Wow she looks 100x better than me, what am I doing wearing these cheap jeans?!". 

I probably was looking waay too far into the situation - but working at a predominantly female office with trendy, chic peer interns makes you sweat a little about what you decide to wear to work! Overall I think the floral pants worked out fine but it made me realize that I am going to stick to my guns and avoid trends that don't suit me or my style. For example, I have tried on colored jeans so many different times and every time I do I squint at myself in the mirror trying to make it look "right", but it just doesn't look right to me! I don't like how you can see the where the fabric bunches when you move your legs on a light, solid color. I also don't think it looks slimming for those of us who have athletic legs, but hey that's only my opinion and I'm sure a lot of people disagree with me. I guess I am learning I am a little conservative when it comes to my fashion sense, but I kind of like it - I rarely am wearing something that makes people go "Yikes!". Trends are tough for me. I want to be experimental and take risks but I don't want to feel uncomfortable. 

General rule of thumb? Do what makes you feel the best, most confident, and most comfortable. 

Lastly, I got kind of annoyed with reading other blogs today. Blogging is a freedom of expression. It's for people who want to have a space on the internet to voice their interests, concerns, daily life, YOU NAME IT! I don't like it when people critique bloggers and say "Oh that's an awful blog", or "You don't know what you're doing". Blogging is fun - let's keep it that way. Does everything have to be so darn competitive? I am proud of my blog and no one else can change that.

Well my post was a lot to take in - and it was kind of jumbled so I'll let you all digest that :)
Thank you for those of you that take the time to read these posts - it means so much to me and I would love to hear any feedback, good or bad! 

Hope everyone has a wonderful Father's day! I love you Dad!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Busy, Busy, Busy

Hi all, my apologies on the sparse updates. Living in NYC has made me understand what a fast-paced lifestyle is all about. I have started my internship and it has been an awesome experience so far! I certainly need to adjust to the 9-5 schedule though - I miss being a college bum and starting my days in the afternoon! Regardless, I am so thankful to have such a wonderful opportunity. Being in the workforce has definitely broadened my fashion horizons as well. It is interesting to see all the different styles in the city and in my office, I feel like I have some learning to do though about how to dress more chic at work. H&M is definitely my top recommended store for cute, affordable work clothes. I think I am going to need to run back there soon to update my wardrobe! Here are a few pictures I have snapped since being here in NYC

Lastly here is a shot from my beautiful pool at home - I just love this picture and had to throw it on here! I miss it so much :(

I will be sure to update on my blog inspiration selections as soon as I get the chance! Thanks for all of your patience during this busy time of my life!